I can’t remember yesterday
The window to my memory frozen and opaque
Maybe my mind is cold like January,
with a sun too dim to shine
Maybe if I sit a while,
it’ll come to me when the frost melts down to droplets
I can’t remember yesterday
I couldn’t tell you what’s on the docket
All that’s left is looming dread that sits its weight on my chest
Is forgetting really an excuse if I can’t remember yesterday?
I can’t remember yesterday
Was it gloomy like a rainy day?
Maybe that’s why my face is pale and my eyes are dark
I can’t remember the gloom of gray skies,
but maybe it left me this frown
I can’t remember yesterday
No, I’m sorry I don’t remember that time or the other
Is it saved somewhere? Should I flip through photo albums?
Save the memory for me,
tuck it somewhere safe for tomorrow to find
I can’t remember yesterday
My head sparks and sputters to find an answer
“Spit it out!” I cried to my own
I fell to my knees, crushed and empty handed
I can’t remember yesterday
I can’t remember if it’s already been said
Are stories of yesterday echoed to today?
I’m sorry if I sing like a broken record or
read all the same books to you
Please don’t get bored of me
I can’t remember yesterday
Maybe it’s because I’m stuck thinking
about tomorrow, or today, or mid-day
in a cycle till recycled
Whipped around by thoughts impossible and mostly fiction
Just to sit and ponder reality, or my best guess
I can’t remember yesterday
Later I’ll phone a friend for context clues
Maybe I have to read inbetween the lines once again,
and then once more
What an awkward guessing game,
because how could I forget?
I can’t remember yesterday
I can’t remember if it was on purpose to forget
Was it for protection? I question
Maybe it wasn’t to be mentioned
I can’t remember yesterday
Or how I wanted to write this poem
Yes, I simply forgot, don’t remind me…
but…
Do you remember yesterday?
Please, fill in the blanks
Remind me till I remember,
Please and thanks